precept

the world doesn't make sense to me, looking back, it stopped making sense a long ago, but i was somewhat hesitant to let it sink in properly. They say that the meek shall inherit the earth, in all its intended meaning, this statement provides little relief, when i am anyhow subjected to watching, listening, and/or reading the fact that bad things happen to good people all the time. Should i still lead a modest, humble life getting crushed under the sheep stampede and knowingly wait for something unspeakable to happen to me or my family, cause i am told that its probabilistic-ally bound to, sooner or later, and i cannot ignore it or pretend otherwise, feeling secure on my own.

Should i just give in to a indifferent, hedonistic, paper chasing way of life, to merge in with the overcrowd most of whom get readily occupied at the slightest technological advancement in communication devices, or better still join in with the oppressors, the elite for whom its all a game of control over the picayune public, for whom luxury takes precedence over
life itself.

this sordid state the world is in has got me stymied.
i am conflicted, as if there is an axe- head between the left and right hemispheres of my brain , maybe that is why i have given my life away to listlessness, because i just cant seem to get my head around this dichotomy that i am faced with, every time i try to open my eyes.